Red lipstick

How I miss you
Stand out
Scream loud friend

My girly side
My spark of spirit

Smuged away
Wiped away
Like tears from the eyes
Like hair from your face

Leaked out of my lips
Onto your skin
Leaked out of my lips
To not return

Red lipstick
Stand out
Brighten their day again
Cause that smile
I can't forget

Red lipstick
Awaken the world

Hello smile

That feeling,
How does it feel
That drag of air
That heap of pain
That changing fear
That lacking space
A void around you
An emptiness than will never be filled
Shall I sacrifice my sanity
To regain my happiness
Cause I miss that honest smile
Day to night
Goodbye sanity
Hello hard work
Hello future
Hello satisfaction
Hello smile, its been a while

You Explain

Maybe you should explain
You and me
Because I can't

When I explain it
Its just a hot mess
Maybe I make excuses
Maybe I get you

But everyone
Stays confused
Dont know what to tell me
Dont know what to expect

He loves you
He loves you not
He's using you
He's too young
He's being grown
He's stringing you along

Maybe I just wonder
Too much
We know that
My mind thinks in circles

So maybe you should explain
And I should explain
So they can get both sides of the story

No longer here

January - September
I thought of
what would it be like
where would I be
how would this work

But it didn't have to work
you were no longer here

September - December
I thought of
you in my arms
a warm feeling
a purpose beyond me

But it didn't have to work
You were no longer here

Time went on
I thought of
you and me
him and you
him and me

3-6month dress

But it didn't have to work
You were no longer here

So days like this
I wake up feeling the pain
since you are no longer here
neither of you
to keep me company

Days like this
I try not to cry
because I know
you would want me to be strong
and there's nothing I could do
to change the past

None of it works
because you are no longer here
But none of it had to work
you were no longer here