How can I trust

I don't understand
How there are so few people to trust
How some people turn around
And break u into pieces

How can u try
How can u let someone in
When u try
And u seem to hit a wall

Everything turns
When u think its going good
People change with u
They spit in your face
Then when they need you expect u to be the same

Now how does that work

Move on with the rest of the world

Nothing is easy
Making things work is no kids game
But we think we can do it no matter what
We try and try
Cry with all our might when it doesn't work

But we do need to
Overcome
Get over what happened
Admit it didn't work
It couldn't work
Move on
Accept what happened

Don't drown yourself in what if
Don't drown yourself in wishes that wont come true
Don't become evil
Grow and learn

Accept all things don't work
And move on with the rest of the world...

Feelings

My feelings
They're all over the place
Not cause I don't understand
Maybe I'm not prepared

Im just standing on edge
Wanting to see the future
And wanting the best
There's so much to offer
So much to give

Fear of moving too fast
Fear of skipping a step
Shaking in my boots
Cause I want perfection
-but there's no such thing as perfect-

I want to care
I want to be cared for
Everything under the sun
I want success
for myself and for my partner

I want a home
A place to call our own
To go and relax
After all is said and done

I want kids
2 I think
Maybe I could deal with more
Maybe not
Not completely sure yet

So my challenge
to learn what I need to
Grow as much as I can on my own
Then build with my partner

For HIM....

I miss you
means nothing
and everything
all at once

The desire of wanting you around
wanting to speak to you
caring about how you feel
but too frightened to say
those true feelings hidden behind eyes

Thinking that
For him
You will leave your past
For him
you will settle down
For him
You will fix things in your grasp so he can be ok
For him
You'd climb mountains
For him
You'd fight everyone and anyone that stood in your way
For him
You'd cry
For him
You'd sing
For him
You'd accomplish all your goals, You'd be his equal
For him
You'd leave the flirting behind
For him
you'd help build a home, where he could go and rest; be himself
For him
You'd have his children
For him
You'd take care of those other people he truly loves (when possible)
For him
you will be determined
for him
you will leave your fears
for him
you will be willing to overcome any challenge

I want these things
And so much more
Fear holding me back
Dont want to be rejected
Dont want things to end up horrible

I want the commitment
i want him
I dont fear him, i fear his rejection
So instead of speaking to Him
I write this For HIM
I hide behind a screen
wondering what if

I write this For Him
and only for him..... <3

Miss you

I may say simple words
Cause I feel I may say too much
Dont want to overdo
Nor say too little

Feel as if I want too much
Yet I know that everything
Can work out to perfection
Just needs time and dedication

Dedication that I may
Or may not
Be ready to give
Afraid to take the step
Cause I know what it entails

Want it so bad
But dont want to rush

My conundrum
When it comes to you