to be
what you want
when you want
it kills me
to open up
as much as i do
when i do
it weakens me
to fight for breath
underwater
knowing i cant swim
suicide
but the weakness
you cause me
keeps turning me
away from my goal
the pain i feel
the hurt thats caused
i just wonder why
why can't i be string
why cant i overcome
the shadow you have cast
patience fills me
but doubt clouds me
love fills me
but hatred come out of me
never do i understand
never do i see
why does it affect
what can i do to
change
to let go of the past
to become a better me
to improve myself
to stop confusing me
cause the love
it gets fueled by hate
the hate gets fueled by confusion
i cant find the way out
i let you cripple me
please understand
i never thought it would get there
so now i hurt
and cry
cause im in your shadow
you dont let me out
you dont let me win
man, how can i live like this
drowning
everytime
you act out
finding the kind of love
i think i deserve
but theres no way out
i just get hurt
that indifference
that pain
that love thats not the same
always to live in a shadow
so whos shadow
am i in now?
