Lonely mother: dedicated to all those women who have lost a child before they met them properly 💔

My heart is with
All the lonely mothers
Hard workers
Fighters
For angels gone

Fight everyday
Fight every night
Just to overcome
No one sees
All the darkness

No one sees
How it sticks
The tears
The remorse
The wonder
First is first

I'm sorry
You're sorry
We're sorry
Never again

So late in time
So early in life
Hearts ache
Soul screams
Forever in pain

A chapter ended
With unwanted force
Can't turn back time
Forever lost
Forever sad

Mother be strong
You are not alone

Courage

I sit
Trying to think
Trying to overcome
Trying to live

I choose
To go on
To look back
To hold on
To let go

If I have this strength
If I stand this tall
If I don't look back
Will you hate me

If I stand still
Crumble at your memory
Suffer every moment
Will you hate me

Because one is easier
But they are both hard
To be there or to move on
To surrender or climb on

Give me to courage
Remind me of what you meAn
Because that love
It won't let me surrender to my sorrow.

Guess it's not my way

I guess im a perfectionist
challenging every aspect
wanting things my way
not taking no for an answer

Guess i never understand
how i plan and plan
and nothing comes to a finished result

guess i don't know how to be a friend
i;m so enveloped in my things
in problems
in life and accomplishments
rarely see the fun

guess i'm just meant to be
tha princess in the tower
wanting to escape
wanting to explore
but never being able to until she finds herself

or maybe i'm just meant to be alone
never understood
never loved
never listened to

i know my traits
i know my weaknesses
but that doesn't make me less
and if someone shall be there
around for me
don't we have to accept each other
flaws and all?

Hurt; How can that be?

how can it be

that after so much
you hurt me so
after some pain
you hurt me more

communicate
that sense of need
sense of wonder

I can't understand

why you don't
hear, listen, understand
the words i tell you
how much it hurts

to see you
to know
that no matter what i say
you're still not understanding
how can that be?