Big dreams, heart aches

This heart aches
Feel like I have lost both of you
In these lights
In this bustle
In this hustle
Life took you away
To take your own path
Two hearts met
Two minds meet
They converse
They console
They push away their worst fears  

Feels like Both are lost
In this city
A city that never sleeps
How can it be
Two hearts aching
Lost in these big lights
Dreaming bigger than ever
Two minds join alike
Working for that dream
Trying to make it
Yet they lose
Lose themselves
In a battle they never fought
In a river never swam
Even if it doesn't go
No matter how mismatched the pieces
It all goes  

Two worlds
Two hearts
Two dreams
Alike in things
Different in soul
Different in spirit  
Can we only work apart
Or can we all become part of a bigger dream?

Life is funny

Life is funny

See I could be a mother right now

I could be a wife right now

I could be a girlfriend right now

I could be so lonely right now

I could be surrounded by friends right now

I could be holding a child in my arms right now

I could be kissing you goodnight right now

I could be cooking your dinner right now

I could be serving you breakfast right now

I could be miserable by your side right now

I could be with you right now

I could be sitting back not thinking right now

I could be exploring new options right now

I could be with who ever I pleased right now

I could laugh as hard as I wanted to right now

I could cry as hard as I want to right now

I could be praying for every soul right now

I could be cursing every name right now

I could be

I could be

Well that's life

So many what ifs

And my mind decides now is the time to think...

What's the point

Try and try

Just to end in the same place

Fight and fight

Just to be seen the same way

We want change

We want success

But with our minds in the same place

We just get replaced

Why fight

Why cry

Why try to fix it

Even when it seems broken

Because a one sided fight

Is close to a lose

Because without enough people behind you

You end up falling face first

That's how it seems

It can't only be that way

But what do I know

Right

Just another young female

With a dream

And no money to talk for me....

Sad mama

Ever imagine

That one day

Expect it

But it slips by for some reason

Then you look back

Oh how things could have changed

You see all the days

You could be celebrating

It breaks your heart

You miss it even more

You pull yourself together

Because few people remember

Few people know

That in heart and in spirit

You too are mother

You too have missed birthdays

You have had to be strong

Without them there

While they look down upon you

Your little angel survived

But not in your arms

And on that first Mother's Day

And on that first birthday

You wish you had them there

Cause now people think there's nothing to celebrate

Nothing for you

While you have this big whole

A whole that gets bigger and bigger

The black hole that crushes your celebration

An emptiness because your child isn't there

Lets stop forgetting 

The women that have to be strong enough

To raise their future children

Maybe even grow children

After losing a child,

before ever really seeing them grow..

Happy Mother's Day to you, lonely mother

And happy birthday to your child 

Every year, on that special day