For HIM....

I miss you
means nothing
and everything
all at once

The desire of wanting you around
wanting to speak to you
caring about how you feel
but too frightened to say
those true feelings hidden behind eyes

Thinking that
For him
You will leave your past
For him
you will settle down
For him
You will fix things in your grasp so he can be ok
For him
You'd climb mountains
For him
You'd fight everyone and anyone that stood in your way
For him
You'd cry
For him
You'd sing
For him
You'd accomplish all your goals, You'd be his equal
For him
You'd leave the flirting behind
For him
you'd help build a home, where he could go and rest; be himself
For him
You'd have his children
For him
You'd take care of those other people he truly loves (when possible)
For him
you will be determined
for him
you will leave your fears
for him
you will be willing to overcome any challenge

I want these things
And so much more
Fear holding me back
Dont want to be rejected
Dont want things to end up horrible

I want the commitment
i want him
I dont fear him, i fear his rejection
So instead of speaking to Him
I write this For HIM
I hide behind a screen
wondering what if

I write this For Him
and only for him..... <3