I cant hurt me anymore

What do i do now?
My heart is screaming your name
My head tells me to stay
I cant hurt you
I cant hurt you
But i cant hurt me anymore

What happens now
that im crying every night
yearning your touch
yearning your love
yearning those words
But i cant hurt me anymore

How can you convince me
To stay in your arms
To stay with your love
That your feelings are true
That its not just sex you want
But I cant hurt me anymore

What do you want me to say
to those endearing terms
to that look of desire
to those texts that have an underlying message?
to that sweet kiss i cant forget
But i cant hurt me anymore

And if i hurt you it kills me
But if i hurt you it kills me even more
so i keep on hurting me
But i cant hurt me anymore

Dont i deserve to be happy
truly happy?
not just content
not just satisfied
but ecstatic
I cant hurt me anymore
so we all have to decide
I cant hurt me anymore
so we all have to be true
I cant keep hurting myself or i may just become a wreck...